Shout Out

Just stop telling me what's good for me, because somehow I don't think you even know what's good for me. Stop being judgemental, just let me live, let me live my life the way I want to. I don't need to consume your lies and I don't trust you, I don't trust you.

Clarity

Here's what some talking hormones that are boiling in my blood would want to express about,

1. Erinna, is apparently a name that was given by my mother, sculpted by the name Tengku Irina she saw from a magazine

2. First child of five, she practically grew up having four agressive boys in the family

3. Very indecisive, let me bold that, indecisive. Even when it comes to picking up a meal from a menu, it's a very unhealthy habit, I know

4. She sings on top of her lungs whenever she feels like it, she sings obnoxiously in the car with her best friends

5. Has a secret dream of participating in Amazing Race Asia, and well my sayang is up for it. So, why not?

6. Never tried smoking, or drinking but that doesn't make her all too glittery on the surface

7. Watches A Walk to Remember, every now and then

8. Shakes her legs tremendously, when she's anxious or before she she goes to sleep

9. Enjoys live gigs, would love to attend James Morrison's

10. Prefers strolling by the beach or the park than an expensive dinner, during a date

11. Past heartaches has taken its toll on her, and would never let the history repeats itself

12. Enjoys curling up in bed with her favourite book in hand during rainy days

13. Wants a huge white wedding, it has to be at an exclusive garden. It's not too early to dream, right?

14. Guys with sexy hands are a huge turn-on

15. Possesses terrible mood swings, and it's probably genetic

16. Rejoice in warm hugs

17. Easily flustered

18. Forgives too easily

19. Would love to fall in love with Paris' Eiffel Tower, learn German in Vienna, kiss under the bridge in Venice, shop til I drop at New York's fifth avenue, a wild honeymoon in Hawaii, attend a Shakespeare play in Britain, watch the sunset in Bali, inculcate the Rome's culture when in Rome, and finally pay a visit to the holy land of Mecca

20. Fragile but not too vulnerable

Modern youth

The youngsters of Malaysia nowadays are keeping up with a good speed

Their knack for organisation and networking have yet been proven. For instance, many kids are participating themselves and getting active in various local organisations, such YAWA (Yayasan Anak Warisan Alam). The kids rule the organisation, and arrange events, including charity events and organise talks by themselves. As for networking, many youths are involved in network marketing and making their way into gaining wealth at a young age. These people are very passionate, ambitious, and focused about what they want. They are knowledgeable about social issues, politics, and the economy.

While there may not be a majority of youths posturing this outlook, but the growing number of youths heading this direction is pretty impressive. It is vital for youths to acquire new skills and encourage their talents and capabilities into a good use. We, as the new generation need to accessorize ourselves with powerful tools that could erect a successful country. We need to acquire freedon from the economic slowdown and recession.

Reveal

Perfect epitome of an exquisite fantasy

Plain truths and confessions

Drifting the night away with a saccharine serenade

Secret yearning for an exuberant getaway

Put your fingers through my hair

Rest my head on your chest

Sing me a lullaby, prompt me to sleep

Slow dancing in a slightly darkened space

Aromatic smell is breathing through

The sky is dark, but the stars are illuminating

Personal Miracle

I'm longing for FREEDOM

I feel like a bird trapped in a cage, I'm a bird filled with sorrows and distress and I'm calling for a saviour. At this very second, I'm feeling a strong urge to make a new way for my life. I persist my life to change, I persist to grow out of my shell, I persist to overcome the constant miseries I've been kept under, I require an antidote to move myself towards a whole new level. I need to collect an immense amount of positive energies to turbo-charge what I want in my life. I need to accumulate stamina that would ultimately shift myself on to a new frequency. I need to assemble the broken pieces and restructure everything, from head to toe. I will now focus on what I need to achieve in my life, and penetrate my goals into the new resolution. 2009 is going to be a good year, at least that's what I would like to believe in.

No matter what happens, no matter what kind of circumstances I might come upon, I will assure myself to stand up and move on from my previous mistakes. I will practice the power of positive thinking in order to invigorate towards a better person of me, inside and out. I will constantly provide myself a gentle nudge everytime I'm feeling at my lowest. I can't let anything get in my way of getting what I want. I will become the best person I can muster myself to be.

I wish to pursue pyschology and I will become a psychologist someday, this is a promise I will ensure I would keep track of. I will not stop spreading love towards the people in my environment. After all, everything we want, whatever it may be, is motivated by love. The power of love, it is to experience the feelings of love in having those things- youth, money, the perfect person, job, body, health or eternal happiness. To attract the things we love, we must transmit love and those things will appear immediately.

Each morning when I wake up, or each night before I fall myself off to sleep, I will scrutinize my own thoughts and make a vision of what I want to achieve and resolve. I ensure myself to be grateful of what I already have- company of good friends and family, an amazing significant other, a fully-functioning body, a well-developed brain. They say, the best things in life are free. It's true, the most wonderful things we could ever cherish in life are free. I'm sure there's a saying that goes, money isn't everything but everything is money, as well. That is downright true, but we can'tlet money be the root of all destructions. The minute I wake up each morning, I instill a great sense of gratitude that I was able to wake up at all.

Always, always leave your loved ones with loving words as you wouldn't have any idea when is the last time you ever will. Treat it like it's your last time with the person every single time you're with him/her, it wouldn't click your mind when the person is ever going to walk out of your life, you will have absolutely no traces of that. Anyone could leave you abruptly, because nobody really stays. Regardless of what you may have gone through with the person, regardless of how long the person have made their way in your life.

You deserve to be happy, everyone deserves to be happy. Each one of you were born to add something, to add value in this world. To simply be bigger, and better than you were yesterday. I strongly believe that, every single thing that I've been through, were to all prepare myself for the future. Simply by your mere existence, you have blessed alarming numbers of people, you may have caused a huge impact on anyone that you've come across, and you may not know it. Believe that you exist to a bring a great importance to this world, no matter what kind of cycle you have originated from. Even if you are going through the toughest circumstance in life, be convinced that there will be silver lining at every cloud, you will become the strongest person ever.

From this moment on, I will keep reminding myself to stay strong, in spite of everything I am going through right now. I know I will, I know things will get better, someday.

Always be my baby

It's been almost seven months since we distinguish it as an official relationship. Along the seven-months trip down to lovey-dovey land, we have had our fair shares of highs and lows, we have had encounters with various complications and jovial incidents. We've traded laughs and tears, pulled each other's nerves and exhanged countless number of meaningful conversations. In spite of everything, we're still climbing up our stairs and grasping each other's hand to make sure we're making our way towards where we're heading to.

Seven months may not seem a very long time, but I always felt like I've known you my whole life. You've been there to listen and you've been there to let me rant about the even littlest things that could bother me. At times I couldn't find the right words to say to you, I couldn't find the right words to comfort you but I want you to know I will be there for you unconditionally. You give me somewhere to run to, you give me a reason to feel complete, to feel whole.

It hasn't been easy, with everything that we have come across, but I won't give up and I hope you wouldn't either. I am well-aware that you're going through so much in your life, and the overwhelming changes that has been developed. Whatever it is, I am proud of you and I know you'll pull it through. Reality really bites but things get better, I am here for you.

I will forever cherish those simple things you did and those everlasting moments that we shared will always be at the back of my mind.

I love you sayang

I could use a sweet escape

The picture implies the exact kind of dose I necessitate at this moment. I'm longing for an exquisite paradise, to put my mind off things.
I guess my feet's not on the ground right now. Well I should head back to reality!